As you awaken, it seems your lens – the filter you use changes, or how I like to see it, the veil lifts. Since my awakening, I feel like a veil has lifted on how I see the world and the people around me. This, in turn, has allowed me to begin to consciously choose who enters my home, who I choose to spend time with, who my friends are and which new friends I choose to make. As I entered into this new phase, I felt that I could make more conscious choices as to which energy I choose to be around.
Unconsciously I have been doing this for many years now. Each year, like a cathartic process, I used to trawl through my social media pages and unfriend people, I would stop talking to people who I chose not to be around anymore and even though I would traditionally call myself an extrovert, over time I chose to spend less and less time with people who I would leave feeling depleted. It may seem harsh to the unseeing eye, but for me, it was self-preservation, at an unconscious level.
It seems, like even though I was living unconsciously to the energies around me, my soul was guiding me. She would push and prod me in certain areas to lighten the energetic load within me and around me. As all things, this happened over time and as I became more comfortable with and in me.
It can be lonely at times, in a world where it is valued important how many facebook friends you have or how often and how many people you go out with, I found myself inching back from social occasions. I sometimes thought that this would be isolating. What I now know, is that by consciously choosing the energy I surround myself with, I have opened myself up to the possibility of meeting new people, being in and around energies that are not only on the same frequency as mine but also those which vibrate higher. This conscious choice of choosing connections, relationships and places has allowed me to explore new aspects of who I am, release those old bonds and chains that I grew up believing in and replenish my energy each and every day.
This conscious choice also comes into play when communicating with people. I no longer get ‘sucked’ into other people’s energies unconsciously. I can still be an active participant in discussions, with friends, family and co-workers. However what I find, is that, I have been able to take a metaphorical step backwards, an energetic step back and not absorb others energy. This is still a work in progress and I think will always be, as this is part of the human experience. I still get ‘sucked’ in and my buttons still get pushed. What I find, is that instead of staying stuck in a foul mood or wonder why this person makes me feel a certain way or why I leave a place feel depleted and drained, I can now recognise and consciously choose to let it go. I also ask myself what is that person, situation, place teaching me and/or highlighting in me that is yet to be learnt/resolved/transmuted. I now consciously choose for me and my soul, what I allow in my energetic space.
I still consider myself an extrovert, but I embrace my need for seclusion, for my own company, my need to connect with nature, with Mother Earth. I welcome the diversity that life offers and choose how and who I spend my time with much more consciously. From time to time my Ego gets in the way and I make a different choice. I attend an event or meet up with people and leave feeling more drained than ever before. I accept this as a lesson and I am grateful for the opportunity to choose more consciously next time.
I encourage you to choose your relationships, your surroundings, and the time you spend more consciously and for you. Not what you should be doing, how busy you need to be, or that you should see this person or that one. Just choose your environment for what resonates for your highest good and that which replenishes, renews and fosters your growth. After all, isn’t the reason we incarnated in this time and place is to experience the full spectrum of human life and to truly raise our energetic vibration.
It truly all starts with you.